The Pain of Life.

I have been pricked, prodded and poked, more times than I would like to imagine and think about.  If the holes that they made didn't heal up on their own, I would probably have more holes in my body than in Bernie Madoffs money making scheme.  Though when they prick me for a needle, whether it's for blood or like this morning for an IV, to put me to sleep, it hurts.  It brings to my memory if a little prick of a needle hurts me, how did Jesus feel on the day,  He was being Crucified.  What did the nails feel like going through his skin.  We know that no bones where broken so the nails had to go through his wrists and not the palm of his hands.  The whipping that He received from what I have read and studied had some type of sharp objects on it, so that too wasn't the easiest thing that He had to go through.  When I was talking to the doctor about my process with my stomach, he had said that I may have to have surgery, but he was like I know that your not jumping at the chance to have surgery.  Not after having 68, but regardless of what Happens, I know that God will be their with me, next to me, in the room with me, and guiding and directing the doctor's hands as He has done all the other times.

Whenever you face the trials and difficulties of life, and whenever you face pain in your life, whether it's the pain of the human body or pain of relationships, know that God has been their in both situations. When it comes to the pain of the body think about when He was on the Cross, what He was feeling, and what He was thinking.  When it comes to the pain of relationships, think about when He found out that Judas Betrayed him.  Peter, denied him not once, or twice but three different times, and said He didn't know who He was, both where one of his 12 disciples.  Remember God loves you, and He is right their beside you through every situation in your life.

 

God Call's You Go.

I know that I am like the man Moses in the Bible, one of the similarities that He and I have is that we both have some type of Speech impedement.  We don't know the cause of Moses's condition, it could have been a stuttering problem, maybe not enough teeth, an overlarged tongue.  Though God called him three different times, to go and speak to Pharaoh, and each time, Moses, said how can I, I am slow of speech and slow of tongue Exodus 4:10.  Exodus 6:12, even says I am unskilled in speech, so it could have been that Moses felt that he was uneducated and could not go and speak to such a highly educated, and highly esteemed, man as Pharaoh.  How many times do we question God, when He calls us, and says go over and speak to that homeless man, go over and witness to the woman standing at the bus stop, go and witness to your family.  We never witness to our family because our family see's our mistakes, our screw ups, and our faults.  Though God doesn't care about our faults, mistakes, or screw ups, God will use us just the way that we are.  Prognosis by doctor's at birth was that I would eventually become brain dead, I have had sixty eight Operations later, 9 years of College, and still looking for that woman of God that He has for me.  Though on the day when I was on my knee's asking God what He had for me, He said send out the DVD and see what I will do with it, and from that time on I have seen what He is doing with it, and He is doing great things through this ministry.  I continue to pray that God continue to use me in this ministry, and in what He has for me, and what He wants to do in my life.  Whenever you hear the voice of God, and hear his voice calling you to do something for him GO.  Don't question him, saying I can't, because He will decide to use someone else, and like with moses he will not be happy.  God will give you the words to speak, the giftings and the talent's to do what it is, that He wants you to do in Your Life.