God will Guide Your Steps.

       We wonder at times in our lives, why does God close certain doors and open others.  Their are all types of doors that we may want to walk through, and sometimes God closes the doors, for reasons which we don't understand.  We need to remember that God sees what He has in store for our lives, because He has plans and purposes for our lives, and He has it all planned out in front of us.  We may not always see it, but God does.  If we were to see it we would be too overwhelmed with what it is that God has planed out for our lives.  My favorite verse Jeremiah 29:11 says it plain and clear, "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you, and not to harm you to give you a hope and a future.  We need to remember that once we give our lives over to Christ, He is in complete and total control of every detail of our life, their is not an area in our life, that He is not willing to help us out in no matter how big or how small.  He is even able to help us find the right job, the right wife/husband, and even the right ministry opportunity. 

       God has complete and total control over our lives, and He will help us.  We need to still seek after the next Job, the right wife/husband, or even the next ministry opportunity.  God will help and guide us, and will lead us to the right opportunity, for the need that we are waiting for, whatever that need is, whether big or small.  God will lead us to what it is that He has for us.  We sometimes think that the small area's in our lives that we are dealing with, God doesn't care about, and that the bigger area's that we are dealing with, God is to big to handle those area's but that just isn't the case at all.  If it was, than maybe I wouldn't be here, and I wouldn't be where I am today.  We need to give ourselves some encouragement once in a while, when the door that we think would open, closed. 

       When the person that we think would be our future husband or wife, dumps us.  We need to remember that when the door closes that their is a reason and a purpose for that door to close.  We need to say okay God, I realize that you have this in the palm of your hand and you will work it out according to your plan and purpose for my life, and that you will work in out in your timing.  I have needed to say that to myself before, and although I get frustrated sometimes because the doors didn't open, I know that God will open it in his timing and plan. 

Here are a few scripture verses that we can use, to guide us every step of the way. 

“The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord … ”(Psalm 37:23)  

          "A man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps.” (Proverbs 16:9)

           “I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will guide you with My                    eye."     (Psalm 32:8)

           “The Lord will guide you continually …” (Isaiah 58:11)

  

           "Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart.                          Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass Rest in the             Lord, and wait patiently for Him.” (Psalm 37:4,7)

       As I said earlier we have to continually seek the right door, person, opportunity, but it is God who in the end will open the right door, find us the right person, or opportunity that He has for us.  It may not even be any of these things it may be something financial, it may be finding a house, it may be finding the right car, it may be finding the what we want to do in our lives, what college we want to go to and what we want to study.  Sometimes those doors even close, and we wonder why, in the end God had a purpose for why He closed the door.  

       Whatever it is God has it all planned out for us.  We just need to rest, and wait upon him, we can't get nervous, frustrated, or angry about the closed doors, we can't let that eat at us.  Their is a saying that "God is never late, But he is never early"  to me that sounds like God is always on time.  I want to close with this last verse Philippians 4:6, Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be known to God, 7, and the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.  

35 years of life

Recently I have been reading a book, where it talked about how God has our live's planned out, and how He knows when we will be born and when we will die.  Sometimes we see a tragic accident, or someone dies suddenly and we wonder could that person have lived longer, was that person's life cut short.  Well according to God and his word, HE has all his children's days, planned out from beginning to end.  

(Psalm 139:16 MSG) Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth; all the stages of my life were spread out before you, The days of my life all prepared before I'd even lived one day.

So even before I was born God knew what would happen in my life.  God knew that when I was born the doctors would tell my parents that I would be brain dead, I wouldn't survive, and to put me into an institution.  As I got older doctors told my parents I wouldn't live past 18.  On Monday the 16th of January 2012 I will be 35 years old.  I wonder sometimes how long will I live, but I can't determine that, only God knows how long I will live, only God knows how many days he has planned out for my life and for yours.  

But you do not know what will happen tomorrow! Your life is like a mist. You can see it for a short time, but then it goes away. (James 4:14 NCV)

I am grateful to God that I have lived as long as I have. I am excited to see what his plans and purposes are for the rest of my life.  Some of my dreams and passions are to expand more with the ministry, giving my testimony to those that have disabilities.  Hopefully to get married at some point, but in the end it's all in Gods plan. So remember this that whatever happens in your life, God has a plan and a purpose for it.

We are assured and know that [God being

a partner in their labor] all things work together and are

[fitting into a plan] for good to and for those who love God

and are called according to [His] design and purpose. (Romans 8:28 AMP)

God works ALL things out for our good

Romans 8:28, their are times in our lives when we go through difficulties, trials, tribulations, we all deal with them. Though have you ever looked at it this way that the trials, tribulations, and situations that we deal with will work out for good?, Have you gotten fired or laid off from a job, has your boyfriend or girlfriend that you once thought you were going to marry dumped you. Your upset, your depressed, but you realize six months down the road that you found a better job, and you realized after meeting the new guy or girl why he/she dumped you. Their have been times in my life when I have wondered why, why would God allow me to go through all that I have. Was the being teased and made fun of, fun, was having to go through 68 operations easy. Is being picked prodded and poked more times than I can count a good time, no absolutely not, but God says in Romans 8:28 that He works out all things, not some, not certain, not a few, but ALL for the good of those that Love Him. Another words if you love God, and your going through a difficult time, Gods going to eventually work it out for God. How do I know, because if it wasn't for the operations I've had, if it wasn't for being operated on at six weeks, if it wasn't for my parents listening to God and not doctors that told them I would be Brain dead, I may not have been here today. So know this that God Loves you, and has great plans for your life.
We are assured and know that [God being a partner in their labor] all things work together and are [fitting into a plan] for good to and for those who love God and are called according to [His] design and purpose. (Romans 8:28 AMP)

You Are Lovable,

"Stupid child, you were just an accident, worthless child thats what he says. waste of time, your never going to make me proud, and don't you cry or I'll give you something to cry about, don't take those words to heart, know that you are, lovable, beautiful, wonderful in me, a child of God no matter what, hold on to the truth, you are lovable, you are lovable, careless words, scars no one can see, how they hurt, and cut you so deep, their are words with the power to bring life, hear them now, your treasure in heaven's eyes, so take these words to heart, and know that you are, lovable, beautiful, wonderful in me, a child of God no matter what, hold on to the truth, you are lovable, words can break, words can build, be filled with grace, or make tears spill, no we can't forget, we are so delicate.  fathers to mothers, and brothers to daughters what do you choose it's all in fresh water, so let the words from my mouth, never leave any doubt that you are lovable, a child of God no matter, what you are lovable" Lovable, bye Kerrie Roberts, 

This is a song that I bought the other day from a Christian artists by the name of Kerrie Roberts, I tried to find the lyrics from the web or her website but couldn't find it.  So their may be a line or two of lyrics missing since I couldn't understand all the words.  When I heard this song, I felt like their were people out their in this world, that needed to see these lyrics to You Are Lovable.  No matter what you have done in your life, no matter what I have done in my life, we are all lovable, we may feel like we are at the lowest of the low at the moment, but God still loves us.  Each and everyone of us, were all the prodigal son at some point in our lives.   The story of the prodigal son in Luke 15:11-32, the son goes away and eventually comes home, in verse 24, the father responds to his son coming home, "For this son of mine, was dead, and has come to life again; he was lost, and has been found.  And they began to celebrate"Luke 24.  God loves you, God loves me, no matter what we have gone through in our lives, and what other people have said about you, by God's standards, You Are Lovable, you may say why because God Loves You. 

God doesn't call the Qualified,

  In this life, God calls us to strive and become more like  him each and every day of our lives, and when we die, as long as we have that relationship with God, and acknowledge him as Lord and Savior, He should say well done good and faithful servant.  Their are a lot of sports athletes out their that proclaim to be Christian, and their are some out their that you can tell by their word and action that they are Christian.  Their is one young man named Tim Tebow, that has gotten a lot of criticism because he's not the most eloquent QB passer, he's not the most accurate passer.  For the last several weeks he has been the lead QB for the Denver Broncos and has won the last 6 games and is now 7-1 as lead QB.  He may not do well in the NFL, we don't know, granted the teams that He has played has not been the cream of the crop.  Although if we look to his past, we can see that God has given him gifts and talents, and while in college he did win the Heisman Trophy.  Whenever people say he's no good, he's not going to do well, he's garbage, I can relate to that, because I have been told that I would not make in this world, in college, would not do well enough to graduate, though I did.  Tim's thinking is that his football career is not on the top priority list of his life.  What He does for God is on the top of his list, and he shows that, by how he plays and what He does while he plays, he bows on one knee and prays, and gives all glory and honor to God.  We need to remember that when God calls us to do something, He will bring us to it, and will bring us through it.  Philippians 4:13 says I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.  God's word never says, I only use the best, most qualified, smartest, of the group, we can see from the bible that He didn't use the best, he used everyday people, like you and me.  So whatever your going through, dealing with, or will some day be going through and dealing with know that God has a plan and a purpose for it and for your life.  Jeremiah 29:11.  Life is not easy, God never said it would be, but God already has our lives written out, it's our choices and our decisions, that allows us to go down the path that God wants us to go down.  He wants each and everyone of us to come to a knowing knowledge of who He is, but we have to make that choice and that decision on our own.

What God Say's About Us.

Have you ever wondered, what God say's about us, we are his Children, He created us, Psalms 139:13-16, He knew us before we were ever born, so He must say something about us in his word.  Yes He does, and here it is,


1.  God says that we are reconciled to God as new creations (2 Corinthians 5:17-18

2.  He also says that we are Forgiven and restored children of God, (John1:12)

3.  We are Citizens of God's Kingdom ( Colossians 1:13-14)

4.  We are In Christ Forever and already seated with him in heaven Ephesians 2:4-7

5.  Saints- yes you are a saint, even with all that we do, we are still saints, because we are God's people. (1 Corinthians 1:1-3)

6.  We are God's masterpiece we may not always like the way we look, the color of our hair, the winkles on our skin, the weight that the men gain as they get older, but regardless we are God's Masterpiece. (Ephesians 2:10)

7.  We are God's ambassadors who represent him. (2 Coronthians 5:20

8.  We are the righteousness of God (2 Corinthians 5:21).

9.  We are His chosen adopted precious ones (Ephesians 1:3-6)

10. We are Partakers of the divine nature (2 Peter 1:1-4).

This is what God says about us, what do we say about God?  

In Everything Give Thanks.

1 Thessalonians 5:18, in everything give thanks; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus;
We are going to have Thanksgiving, and we will give thanks for different reasons, and in this Bible verse we are told to give thanks in everything.  Here is my list for why I am thankful this year,

                  1.  For God sending his son Jesus Christ to die on the Cross for my sins, and for his forgiveness of what I have done in my life, and for my relationship with him. 

                 

                  2.  For my family, and still being able to live with my dad, eventhough I would love to move out on my own, I am thankful for my father being able to still allow to live with him.  

                  3.  For the ministry that God has allowed to have me to be doing for the last 4 and a half years, and that God would continue to allow me to do it, and would continue to lead and guide me to what He has for me to do.  

                4.   For my friends, that either I have had for the last several months, for the last several years, or for most of my life.  I am thankful for what my friends have done in my life, for the encouragement, for the support, for being their when I needed to talk to someone.  

God I give you thanks for all of these things, that you have placed in my life, and I am grateful for what you have done in my life this year, and I am excited to see what you have in store and for what you are going to be doing in my life in 2012.

It's not about how hard you can get hit, but how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward.

I recently saw the latest Rocky Balboa Movie, which I saw for the very first time.  Once again balboa comes back from all the naysayers and people who doubt him, and come back and win.  One of the statements that he says really got me.  It is, It's not about how hard you can hit, but how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward.  I think thats what happens too many times, in our lives we get hit, and what happens we give up.  What would've happened when Jesus said in Mark 15:34, my God My God why have you forsaken me.  He wouldn't have quit, and given up, because He was God, but what was his human side thinking, what was his human side saying to him? I was going to put some things down, of what I thought, but I really don't know, though I am glad of one thing, that He didn't quit, and He kept on moving.  I am grateful, that God sent his son so that He could die on the cross for our sins.  So why do we quit, when we have God in our lives, fighting the battles, that we have in our lives, when He fights them for us to begin with?  Lets not give up, but get up after being hit, and keep moving forward.  Remember God loves you.

What can God do with you,

Have you ever looked back on your life, and wondered, what if, what if this would have happened or what if that would have happened.  Have you ever looked back at your birth, and wondered, whether you were planned? or a surprise?  You may say yeah I was a surprise such a surprise to my parent's that they gave me up for adoption, those of you who were planned, may have lived in a house where you didn't feel the love from your parent's that you think you should have gotten.  Due to what we have been through we may focus so much on our past we forget about our future, and some of us focus so much on our future we forget about our past.  We need to have a balance to see from where God has taken us from, to where God is bringing us.  Regardless of what our past looks like, what we have done, where we have come from, God has a bright future for you, because God has a plan and a purpose for your life.  Jeremiah 29:11, For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you, and not to harm you, to give you a hope and a future. In Jeremiah 1:5 Jeremiah was called by God, to be a prophet to the nations.  “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, And before you were born I consecrated you; I have appointed you a prophet to the nations.” 6 Then I said, “Alas, Lord God! Behold, I do not know how to speak, Because I am a youth.” 7 But the Lord said to me, “Do not say, ‘I am a youth,’ Because everywhere I send you, you shall go, And all that I command you, you shall speak. 8 “Do not be afraid of them, For I am with you to deliver you,” declares the Lord. 9 Then the Lord stretched out His hand and touched my mouth, and the Lord said to me, “Behold, I have put My words in your mouth.  God used the nobody's, He used, Jeremiah, He used Paul, who even called himself one of the least of the saints, Ephesians 3:8, To me, the very least of all saints, this grace was given, to preach to the Gentiles the unfathomable riches of Christ.  He used Silas, He used Daniel, He used me, He even used his son Jesus to bring eternal life to your immortal souls, what do you think He can do with you.  

Taking down our Walls.

I saw this on facebook, when I woke up this morning, and it just hit me, and I had to quote it and use it in my blog this morning.  ‎"Sometimes people put up walls, not to keep others out, but to see who cares enough to break them down".  Some people might say well people just do that for attention getting.  Well that might be true to a point, but when we walk into the doors of a church, we are walking into a spiritual hospital, where we are supposed to be healed of our past, healed of our spiritual sicknesses, our guilt, shame, mistakes, not only healed but forgiving of our past sins, and mistakes.  I know what people are going to say well the church is not the building the church are the people, and yes we are the church, so why don't we do what that statement says.  Get to know people well enough to show that we love and care for them, than they will break their walls down.  Too many people, walk into the church, get to know people on the entry level of what they do for work, are they married, do they have kids, etc, but they don't get to know them beyond that.  They walk out the doors and don't talk to them till the following week.  Than you don't see that individual for months on end, and you forget about them, because you don't truly know who they are, what their going through or dealing with.  Than we wonder why churches are getting smaller.  

Though sometimes people are too ashamed and to embarrassed of what we have done in our past to come out and tell others what that is. Yes when we sin we do not have to tell others what we have done, because we tell God what that sin is.  Doesn't it help when we talk with someone, about what has happened in our past that the guilt feeling or the heaviness we feel leaves.  I think sometimes, we have the feeling that God sometimes hangs those sins, or the past mistakes over our heads, and we forget that once we have asked for forgiveness, that it is no longer their.  He wipes the slate clean of all of what we have done in our past.   Even though we have asked for forgiveness, of those sins, we still hold on to them, maybe not because we still feel guilty, but maybe because we wonder will we do them again?  Hebrews is the chapter of faith, because in most verses it talks about faith, and in verse 30, it says By Faith the walls of Jericho fell down after they had been encircled the for seven days. Jeremiah 29:11 For I know that God has a plan and a purpose for our life, plans to prosper us, and not to harm us but to give us a hope and a future.  God help us to take down our walls.

Watch Me.

I have had so many people tell me that I can't do this or that I can't do that, and when I told them what I wanted to do, they would say no way. You can't do that, their is absolutely no way you can do that, you can't be a sports athlete, you can't be a teacher, you can't be in ministry.  Though as we know God tells us that He has a plan and a purpose for our lives Jeremiah 29:11.  Philippians 4:13, says I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. In Proverbs 3:5-6 God tells us to trust in him, not to trust in anyone or anybody else or to listen to anyone or anybody else, but to trust in him. Lean not on our OWN understanding but in all our ways acknowledge him, and He will make our paths straight. So I just had to share this, and if it's something that God wants you to do, and people are telling you that you can't, just turn around, and tell them watch me.

It may be God telling you to be be missionary, in a foreign country that hasn't had one in 100 years or has never had one.  It may be God telling you or opening up a door for you to be a teacher in one of the worst schools in the country, and people tell you don't do it, or that you can't.  I love the movie lean on me, because principal Joe Clark, used in a school in Paterson NJ, and was asked to return to become the Principal.  The school was so bad that the Government was going to take it over, though with all the people telling Principal Joe he and his staff couldn't do it he turned it around, so that the Government didn't have to take it over.  Just know that God has a plan and a purpose for your life, and whenever anyone says you can't tell them WATCH ME.  

What Does God have Planned for Your Life.

Have you ever wondered why things happen in your life?  Have you ever asked or screamed out to God, WHY?  Have you ever laid down something at God's feet, and taken it back the next day because He wasn't quick enough to answer that prayer.  I think we all have at some point, though we forget that from birth to death, from Job to Job, from being single to being married, God has it all planned out in our lives.  We may think that we met the greatest man/woman in the world, and we think we are going to get married, yet down the road he dumbs you, or as guys we dump the girls.  We think that when we get dumped, or when we dump someone it's the end of the world, but is it really?  Is it really the end of the world when something happens in our lives, it may be something tragic, it maybe losing a job, it maybe getting dumbed by what you think is the greatest guy/girl in the world. Yet we forget that God has it all planned out.  Philippians 1:6, says For I am confident of this very thing, that He who begin a good work in you, will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus, 1 Corinthians 2:9 says But just as it is written, Things which eye has not seen, and ear has not heard and which Have not entered the heart of man, all that God prepared for those who love him.  In other words we don't know what it is that God has for us, but we know that it will be good, because we are his children, and He will protect, guide, and lead us to what it is that He has for us.  The message version of Jeremiah 29:11 says I know what I am doing, I have it all planned out, plans to PROSPER you, and not to HARM you, to give you a HOPE and a FUTURE.  We may not see those things now, but in God's timing and way we will.  Because whatever situation, difficulty, trial, or fear we are facing God wins.

Where were you on 9/11

I know this is a day late, but hopefully not a dollar short, I went to a church yesterday in Jersey and felt humbled of being asked to come on 9/11.  Just because of what happened ten years prior.  Where were you when the first towers hit, where were you when you first found out that something had happened in NYC.  I was sitting in a Library on the campus of Valley Forge Christian College, and had a friend come running in, to tell me that something has happened in NY.  So I went running back to my dorm, to call my home, and make sure everyone was okay.  I got my mom crying on the phone telling me that something has happened in the City.  I went into the chapel, seeing what was going on in the city was disturbing and a lot of people where crying.  It was very hard to try and get family members on the phone later in the day.  Ten years later, we lost a lot of people on that day, but we still remember what happened on that day as people who were around when Pearl Harbor happened I am sure remembered.  I usually give my testimony the first time I visit a church for the first time. Yesterday, I told them where I was that day, and I even asked God to help those in the room that may have had to deal with something on that day, or maybe still are.  So where were you on that day, what did you through on that day, your emotions, actions, reactions.  Let us remember that God has us right where He wants us to be.  Jeremiah 29:11 I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you hope and a future. 

The Trials We Face

I have been getting ready this week to do a couple of services this week based on James 1:2-3, which says  2 Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, 3 knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. 4 And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.  When trials come our way, some of us give up, we think that God isn't standing next to us anymore, He's not in our corner, He is not their nor is He going to help us.
I don't know all that people go through but God does, though when I see Christians going through these trials I sometimes wonder are they trusting in God?  They seem to have giving up on God, and on God helping them.  Do they feel that God has left them? Do they feel that God is not their for them anymore? I am not sure, I am not God, though I do now as it says in Hebrews 13:5 that  Make sure that your character is free from the love of money being content with what you have; for He Himself has said I WILL NEVER DESERT YOU, NOR WILL I EVER FORSAKE YOU.   During certain trials we are facing or going through we may feel like Jesus felt when he was on the cross, we may feel that God is forsaking us.  Jesus was dying on the cross, after being beaten but yet God's son still screams out ELI, ELI, LAMA SABACHTHANI MY GOD, MY GOD, WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME.  (Mt 27:46).  We may feel that God isn't in our corner during the trials, we may feel like Jesus felt that his own father was forsaken him, though Jesus tells us inWhenever we feel like giving up remember that Jesus also cried out why are you forsaken me, though God also tells us that He will never leave us nor forsake us.

Made in God's Image

Walking through the mall last night, I realized one thing about my life, that I thought I had gotten either used to, or that I had ingrained in my mind Psalms 139 13:17, that it wouldn't bother me anymore.
I had a couple of people that had starred at me, and looked at my hands.  Now I will grant you that one of those was a young girl probably younger than twelve, and she had said something to her mother.  Probably the fact that I was looking back at her because she was looking at me.  Like the bible says do unto others as you would have them do to you.  Now I am trying to be a little funny with that last comment, but last night, I realized once again that God made, formed, and created me for a reason and a purpose because from what it says in Psalms 139:13-17. For you formed my inward parts; You wove me in my mother’s womb. 14 I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well. 15 My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, And skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth; 16 Your eyes have seen my unformed substance; And in Your book were all written The days that were ordained for me, When as yet there was not one of them. 


I am made in God's image, God knew that before I was born that I would be the way that I am, why because thats the way God either formed me, or allowed me to be formed.  God doesn't want his children to go through difficulties and trials, but he allows it only because to strengthen our faith, and strengthen our relationship with him.  So if your going through difficulties today go to God, and He will bring you through whatever it is that you are facing in your life.  

   

Back In Time

Have you ever gone somewhere you haven’t been for a really long time, and all of a sudden you start to think back to when you where their, 10, 15, 20 years earlier.  Well I did that today, I went to talk to someone today in NYC, right across the hospital where I had probably half of my surgeries. I walked into the hallway where I had most of my appointments and I remembered being their as a kid, having to go and see doctor’s.  Sitting in the lunch room, because sometimes I was their for most of the day, and than their where times when I would have to stay in the hospital for surgery, so I was their for more than a few days.  Those memories come back to you, than you realize from where you been, to where you are now, and you realize that God has brought you a long way.  You remember what your parent’s told you about having the doctor’s tell them that you may eventually be brain dead, and that the best option for them would be to put you into an institution and walk away.  Though 34 years later, you are a evangelist traveling all over the North East, Giving your testimony of what God has done in your life.  Which I am grateful and thankful to God for, and I am excited about what it is that God has for me, for my present and my future.  Though regardless of what does happen, I know that God has a plan and a purpose for my life.  Jeremiah 29:11 Remember that whatever your past is, whether it’s bleak, dark, not wanting to look back at it, because of all you been through, or whether it’s a bright, joyous, happy, past.  God has a plan for your life, and He will lead and guide you to whatever He has in store for your life.  He will use your life, to encourage and inspire others.  Remember, GOD LOVES YOU.

Mothers Day,

It's a few weeks away yet, though May is always a happy and sad time of the year for me, and for my dad.  One because we are celebrating his 80th birthday this year, and no I am not a lot older than I really look, I really am only 34.  If you want to know how that happened, talk to my dad, thats why it's happy the reason it's sad is because this year, will be my Mom's ninth year in Heaven, not only to we celebrate Mother's day, we also would celebrate my Mom's Birthday.  In 1 Corinthians 13 their is a verse that my Mom would quote at the end of it, where it says we may see in a mirror dimly but then face to face; now I know in part but then I will know fully just as I also have been fully known.  I like that verse because the meaning behind it is this, their are times in our lives when situations, happen, and we don't fully understand why that happened my Mom passing away for example.  Though when we get to heaven and we see Christ face to face, we will fully understand why these situations happen in our lives.  Why was I born with a birth defect, why did I have to deal with everything that I have in my life, how did I NOT give up on God, how did I survive 68 operations.  We all have questions about our life, it could be small it could be something big, but eventually we will know the answer. 

What God did in Maine

You get in contact with a Pastor up in Rumford ME, and he asks you in a year advance can you come up for a four day revival service in April of 2011.  So you do, you take that opportunity that God gives you, but like everything else, you wonder, what is this going to be like, how is this going to come out, what is God going to do in these meetings, and through me.  You never done anything like this in your life, so your in a whole new ballgame with what God has for you to be doing.  Your like peter, you take that step out of the boat, heading towards Jesus, thankfully I didn't look around, nervous afraid about what was going to happen around me.  I laid everything at his feet, and thank God he helped me speak, his words, to the hearts and the souls of the people that where up in Rumford ME.  God did some amazing things in those 4 days and I believe He will continue to do great things in Rumford ME, but God used his vessel.  We just need to know when He calls us to do what Peter did get out of the boat, God calls us, and wants us to do things for his honor and glory, but God don't force us either.  We have to do our own action, move, and obey what it is that God wants us to do, listen to His Voice.  

The Pain of Life.

I have been pricked, prodded and poked, more times than I would like to imagine and think about.  If the holes that they made didn't heal up on their own, I would probably have more holes in my body than in Bernie Madoffs money making scheme.  Though when they prick me for a needle, whether it's for blood or like this morning for an IV, to put me to sleep, it hurts.  It brings to my memory if a little prick of a needle hurts me, how did Jesus feel on the day,  He was being Crucified.  What did the nails feel like going through his skin.  We know that no bones where broken so the nails had to go through his wrists and not the palm of his hands.  The whipping that He received from what I have read and studied had some type of sharp objects on it, so that too wasn't the easiest thing that He had to go through.  When I was talking to the doctor about my process with my stomach, he had said that I may have to have surgery, but he was like I know that your not jumping at the chance to have surgery.  Not after having 68, but regardless of what Happens, I know that God will be their with me, next to me, in the room with me, and guiding and directing the doctor's hands as He has done all the other times.

Whenever you face the trials and difficulties of life, and whenever you face pain in your life, whether it's the pain of the human body or pain of relationships, know that God has been their in both situations. When it comes to the pain of the body think about when He was on the Cross, what He was feeling, and what He was thinking.  When it comes to the pain of relationships, think about when He found out that Judas Betrayed him.  Peter, denied him not once, or twice but three different times, and said He didn't know who He was, both where one of his 12 disciples.  Remember God loves you, and He is right their beside you through every situation in your life.

 

God Call's You Go.

I know that I am like the man Moses in the Bible, one of the similarities that He and I have is that we both have some type of Speech impedement.  We don't know the cause of Moses's condition, it could have been a stuttering problem, maybe not enough teeth, an overlarged tongue.  Though God called him three different times, to go and speak to Pharaoh, and each time, Moses, said how can I, I am slow of speech and slow of tongue Exodus 4:10.  Exodus 6:12, even says I am unskilled in speech, so it could have been that Moses felt that he was uneducated and could not go and speak to such a highly educated, and highly esteemed, man as Pharaoh.  How many times do we question God, when He calls us, and says go over and speak to that homeless man, go over and witness to the woman standing at the bus stop, go and witness to your family.  We never witness to our family because our family see's our mistakes, our screw ups, and our faults.  Though God doesn't care about our faults, mistakes, or screw ups, God will use us just the way that we are.  Prognosis by doctor's at birth was that I would eventually become brain dead, I have had sixty eight Operations later, 9 years of College, and still looking for that woman of God that He has for me.  Though on the day when I was on my knee's asking God what He had for me, He said send out the DVD and see what I will do with it, and from that time on I have seen what He is doing with it, and He is doing great things through this ministry.  I continue to pray that God continue to use me in this ministry, and in what He has for me, and what He wants to do in my life.  Whenever you hear the voice of God, and hear his voice calling you to do something for him GO.  Don't question him, saying I can't, because He will decide to use someone else, and like with moses he will not be happy.  God will give you the words to speak, the giftings and the talent's to do what it is, that He wants you to do in Your Life.